Wow, what a week. It was a HARD week. This micro apartment without a car all day finally caught up with me. I am SO over our living arrangements, I MUST remember this was MY choice, to be here, in Alaska at this time, in this tiny place, without a car, with two young children, and pregnant.
When John was over seas we were staying with my sweet, kind, generous, loving, giving, serving parents. It was a great great 4+ weeks, BUT our children needed to be with their daddy. When he came home we decided that we would ALL move together instead of waiting until the home closing date. I know I made the correct decision BUT it is still hard living in a "home" that could fit in our Midland den.
Some may ask and WHY is this so hard? I am raising my 3.5 yr old and 18M in a tiny place with limited toys and limited outside play (UM we live in the North Pole). Tiny is being a typical 3.5yr old which is NOT fun in ANY living place BUT add that to a 5th floor apartment surrounded by people. He has started to act out and not being his kind hearted self. Paps is a crazy 18m old into everything!!!! They also share a room which is hard bc they LOVE to wake each other up which brings a LONG whining day.
After crying ALL day Friday I decided that Tiny WOULD start school on Tuesday. That ment I HAD to put on my big girl undies and learn how to drive the truck, in the snow. So, I DROVE the truck, with my babies, in the snow!
As I type this I see how SILLY all these tears are. THIS is only temporary. We WILL be in our new home soon, the kids will grow out of these moods, and I won't we pregnant and hormonal forever.
I forgot my Jesus is Calling book SO today I bought the app. AND what a day I needed it! Today said, "The best way to befriend your problems is to thank Me for them. This simple act opens your mind to the possibility of benefits flowing from your difficulties." WOW- I should THANK the Lord for ALL this? So, I should not be asking the Lord to "PLEASE, please, change where I am, speed up theses days, and please make the kids NOT act their ages" AND say THANK YOU for ALL these things???- What a DIFFERENT way to look at this!!
In exciting News:
I have my 1st OB appointment today
Tiny starts school tomorrow (T/Th for 3hrs a day)
My Bffs Twins turned 4 today
My babies God Mother got engaged yesterday
I receive such up lifting voice mails and emails from friends and family daily
We are together as a family with a roof over our head
God is good and I AM thankful for my problems
When John was over seas we were staying with my sweet, kind, generous, loving, giving, serving parents. It was a great great 4+ weeks, BUT our children needed to be with their daddy. When he came home we decided that we would ALL move together instead of waiting until the home closing date. I know I made the correct decision BUT it is still hard living in a "home" that could fit in our Midland den.
Some may ask and WHY is this so hard? I am raising my 3.5 yr old and 18M in a tiny place with limited toys and limited outside play (UM we live in the North Pole). Tiny is being a typical 3.5yr old which is NOT fun in ANY living place BUT add that to a 5th floor apartment surrounded by people. He has started to act out and not being his kind hearted self. Paps is a crazy 18m old into everything!!!! They also share a room which is hard bc they LOVE to wake each other up which brings a LONG whining day.
After crying ALL day Friday I decided that Tiny WOULD start school on Tuesday. That ment I HAD to put on my big girl undies and learn how to drive the truck, in the snow. So, I DROVE the truck, with my babies, in the snow!
As I type this I see how SILLY all these tears are. THIS is only temporary. We WILL be in our new home soon, the kids will grow out of these moods, and I won't we pregnant and hormonal forever.
I forgot my Jesus is Calling book SO today I bought the app. AND what a day I needed it! Today said, "The best way to befriend your problems is to thank Me for them. This simple act opens your mind to the possibility of benefits flowing from your difficulties." WOW- I should THANK the Lord for ALL this? So, I should not be asking the Lord to "PLEASE, please, change where I am, speed up theses days, and please make the kids NOT act their ages" AND say THANK YOU for ALL these things???- What a DIFFERENT way to look at this!!
In exciting News:
I have my 1st OB appointment today
Tiny starts school tomorrow (T/Th for 3hrs a day)
My Bffs Twins turned 4 today
My babies God Mother got engaged yesterday
I receive such up lifting voice mails and emails from friends and family daily
We are together as a family with a roof over our head
God is good and I AM thankful for my problems
Eskimo Kisses, amanda
Thanks for this post. It brought tears to my eyes. I needed to hear this today!
ReplyDeletePrecious post - thanks for the reminder. I want to try and enjoy each stage not wish them away when they are hard!
ReplyDeleteAmanda, I feel you! It is hard on everyone in the family being seperated. We are doing it now (Jared in Dallas, us in Waco at my parents) and the kids need thier Dad! I think you made the RIGHT choice to be up there and God made you stronger as a woman, wife and mom though this. You will look back and remember how much you grew and laugh at yourself. I know you are now in a home and excited to read about your Alaskan Adventures!
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